Hayden you are 1 month old

Hayden you turned 1 month old yesterday. You aren't doing to much yet but you are a lot more alert. I feel like we have finally gotten to know eachother after a very long and tring month and I have fallen so head over heals in love with you. Son you are wonderful and different and beautiful and I just can't believe that you came from me and your Daddy. You are just so different than you brother in your looks and I adore that. I adore you long beautiful brown/black hair. I can't believe that you have that much. You are just so wonderful son and i can wait to have many more months with you. I love you little boy and the months to come are going to be so awesome! Thank you JEsus for my boys!

Pierce and Hayden

Pierce and Hayden I never knew how full and beautiful my life could be till I had you both. I feel like my life is complete now that I have my Hayden and my Pierce and I could not be happier. I want to cherish every single crazy moment with both of you. I never thought I would want to be a stay at home mom but after this month of being home with both of you I can't imagine ever leaving for work again.

I had to go in for a few hours the other day and Pierce you just cried and cried. It broke my heart. I just longed to be home with you the whole time I was gone not only emotionally but Hayden my body knew that you needed me for food. I could not wait to get home to you to feed you to hold you to snuggle you. And Pierce when you woke up from your nap after I had been home the smile on your face to see I had returned melted my heart. I love you boys more than anything well besides your Daddy and Jesus of course.

I just adore both of your spirits and every moment when it can't get any louder when I want to go crazy I try to remember this won't be like this forever.... cherish every m oment. Before I know it you will both be grown you won't wnat your mama anymore. You won't want to hug eachother or me and Daddy for that matter. I love you both I adore you I never want to forget a moment with you.

Pierce now that you are in school two days a week you love it. You are always so happy when I come to pick you up. You have had such a wonderful time and I know its just a time where you get to fill up on Jesus and sing songs about him and read books about Him. ITs sooo good for you Pierce. I know that Jesus is going to be singing in your soul. I know everytime you hear music about God and Jesus your soul is rejoicing and I rejoice in knowing this. You love to sing and I pray that Jesus will grab your heart before anyone or anything else ever gets a chance and you will know the true meaning of Christ and you will lead others to him. Hayden I pray the same for you I pray that your spirit will long to be with JEsus and that you will cling to him. That you and your brother will leave a legacy and it will be a beautiful one. I love you both so much.

THank you boys for teaching me so much in my life for loving me and for depending on me for all of your needs I adore you both. Pierce and Hayden thank you for being my sons and I pray all the days of your lives that you will know how much your Daddy and I love you and that you will truly understand what you mean to us!

20 Months Old Today and First Day of PreSchool!`

Pierce Man you are officially 20 months old today and you go to school now! I love you so much and this last month has been full of changes and adjustments and you have rocked! You have become a Daddy's boy like no other! You adore your Daddy especially because mama has to feed brother Hayden a lot and there is just a lot going on. Every morning you wake up yelling Dada when it used to be Mama. After nap you yell Dada but you know its ok I love that you and your Daddy have such a close relationship!

We both adore you to pieces. You sit like a big boy. You walked into school today holding my hand the whole time. You didn't try to run from me like you used to. YOu are just a better listener all around. When I ask you to throw something away you do. When you go outside and leave the door open I ask you to shut it and you will. YOu still don't eat very well at meal times but we are working on it. YOu don't have tantrums to often but when you do they sure are hard on everyone!

I think you have come to love your little brother or atleast realize he is not going anywhere atleast for the next 18 years! :-). When he cries you will throw your favortie monkey or your phone at him. I think you are trying to console him with those things because they console you. You always run into his room in the morning wanting to get him up. You hold his hand when we ask you to. You kiss his head when we ask you to or you ask to kiss it. You also like to give him his paci when he cries. You want him to feel better. You are a wonderful big brother and I could not have asked for more!!

YOu say lots of new words all the time. Everyday you learn something new and your words and so sweet and precious. I'll try to list your normal vocabulary.

mama
dada
max
lady
dog
cat
fish
yes
no
stop
more
ice
please
food
wawa
bottle

and many more I just cant think of.

You are truly a joy to have in my life and I love you son. Thank you for being with me for 20 beautiful glorious months. I pray for a million more months to have with you! I love you little boy!

Labor and Delivery! Hayden Jackson!

Hayden Jackson... you have made you arrival!!! Heres how it all went down.

I had been praying you would come every day since I was about 36 weeks pregnant. God knew best and at 39 weeks and 1 day I went into labor and 4:30am in the morning. I had a feeling I was going to have you the night before so I was just waiting. I even went to Mimi Bells for what I said would be my last meal before you came and sure enough it was. I had steak, onions and field peas it was delicious!! Daddy had to work the night and day before so he wasn't home when I went into labor. The pains were too bad but they were pretty consistenet. Around 5:00am I called Grandma Fuller and asked her to come and get me so we could take your brother Pierce to my parents and so that she could take me to the hospital. I knew your Mimi Bell would not be up and ready this early.

Grandma Fuller arrives at 6:00 am. Your brother Pierce had woken up around 5:30am for some strange reason. Maybe he knew what was going to happen. So I got up with him and I rocked and sang to him while he drank his bottle. I was so thankful to have this time with him because I knew I would be seeing him for about a day and a half. He let me rock him and I told him that if he didn't get to see me that night that I would be home the next day to be with him and that I loved him very much. I don't think he understood but I still wanted to tell him.

So we drop Pierce at Mimi Bells and we are off to the hospital to have you. We arrive around 7:00am Daddy is still at work and doesn't get off till 7:30am so he was not rushing. I don't think he realy thought I was in labor.. But I assured him I was. So they hook me up to the monitors at about 7:15am call my Dr. My Dr. comes in around 7:30 and he checks me I'm about 3 cm and pretty regular contractions so he says they will admit me I'm definatly in labor. Are labor nurse was nurse Debbie. She rocked by the way> I really liked her. ANd Dr. Parker is the one who delievered you and he also delivered your brother I think thats kind of special also.

So we go to the labor and delivery room from the triage room. Still having pretty regular contractions. By 7:45am Daddy has arrived. He is still skeptical I think he was in denial. So we get in and the contractions begin to get more intense!!! I never remembered them being this hard and painful with your brother. Maybe I wasn't in active labor till after I had the epidural who knows. Nurse Debbie comes in to start my IV and draw blood and stabbed me about 3 times before she could. I almost blacked out I was hyperventilating begging for an epidural. I was in SOOOOOO much pain.

Around 10:00am they finally get me an epidural. It wasn't that bad this time maybe because Nurse Debbie was with me and holding my shoulders and really helping me and Daddy was just doing his own thing not bothering me which seemed to help. So they get it going and I have almost instant relief. They also gave me some antinausea medicine cause I was so sick from the epidural last time with your brother. After the epidural the Dr. came in around 11:00 am and broke my water everything looked good.

Around 12:00 pm I started feeling pressure and the nurse checked and I was about 7 cm and said that it was likely I would have you very very soon. Soo sure enough 30 min later I was fully dialated and I pushed 3 times not even for 5 min and around 12:35 out you came. NO tearing nothing it was the easiest delivery ever. You had a FULLLLLL head of hair. Nothing like I have ever seen and you look exactly like your Daddy. You are the complete opposite of your brother and you are beautiful! WE are so blessed to have you in our lives. YOu are a sweet boy just a little bit of colic but you are doing wonderful. You breastfeed like a champ and also take a bottle when need be! You were 7.4lbs and 20 inches long.

You and your brother I believe will be best friends and I am so blessed to watch you grow up! We checked out of the hospital at around 2:00 pm and we came home and were with your brother for the first time. Your Uncle Ryan and Michelle also suprised us and came into town from North Dakota. They also were able to meet y our brother the day after he was born. You boys sure are special! Your Uncle Ryan and Aunt Michelle are also pregnant and they are having a boy so you will have a little boy cousin come January 23 (daddy's birthday) or before.

Well we love you Hayden Jackson! By the way Jackson is your great grandfather Dyal's middle name and thats why we picked it!

Love you and are so blessed to have you and your brother Pierce!

19 Months Old and Almost a Big Brother

Oh my little sweetie you are 19 months old today! I adore you so very much and my love for you grows with every passing day. You have brought me so much joy this month and I can't believe how big you are getting.

We have started routines at night of singing and rocking you and I adore this time. I usually end up tickling and singing and praying and we giggle and laugh! ITs wonderful! You are just amazing! You also love your cereal in the morning. You now have a big boy booster seat you sit in at the table and I get you a big bowl of honey nut cheerios and you use your big spoon and feed it to your self till its all gone! It is sooo funny! I love watching you grow into this amazing little boy!

You love to give kisses to EVERYONE! It is so cute! Even a stranger you will kiss! You are very good at self entertaining and entertaining us for that matter as well! I can't believe 19 short months ago you came into our lives and changed us forever! I never knew what it mean't to be a mom and to love someone so selflessly! It is beautiful!

Thank you for being so amazing and I hope and pray that you will continue to grow and love your family and your Lord. When we are in the car listening to z88.3 you sing to all the christian music and I just pray that these words of Truth of Love and of God will become engrained on your soul and you will always look to the Lord for guidance and for Truth!

I love you little boy and I am the proudest mama on the block! Thank you for loving us!

My sweet baby love!

Little boy Pierce I adore you! You are so funny now a days! We have started a new bed time routine because you are getting older and apparently need it. We now start getting ready for bed around 6:45 pm instead of 6:00 pm! :-) Here is how the routine goes!

6:45 pm -
Bathtime
Milk
Bible stories
books
Mommy and Daddy then sing praise songs and kids songs
We say our prayers
Than you go to bed around 7:30pm.

We had to start doing this because after vacation anytime I would put you to bed around 6:30 you would scream and cry hysterically and I wound up taking you out of bed sitting on the couch and watching Yogababa. So it wasn't worth trying to put you to bed earlier.

You still seem to get up between 6-6:30 but I try to keep you in bed till atleast 7:00 so that I can get a little more sleep. You lay in bed and sing and than once you have had enough you scream till I come and get you! You are a crazy little man!

Recently since we have started our praise songs you seem to know all the words to Jesus Loves Me and you constantly ask to hear it more and more. It blesses my heart and I see how the Bible says that Jesus cause the little children who follow with child like faith! I pray that you continue to follow and that the songs and bible stories that we read every night will be engrained on your heart forever and that you will grow up loving and praising Jesus all the days of your life. If thats one thing in life that I want if I get nothing else in life this is what I want for you and your brother Hayden! This is more important to me than anything else in this life! Your relationship with Jesus Christ so that one day when Jesus comes or we pass on we will enjoy eternity in heaven together! I just love you little boy more than I coudl have ever imagined.

Another sweet thing that you do is when we pray everynight you take both your little hands make fist and put them up under your nose while we pray and you are very quite! Than when we are done praying you say AMEN and clap your hands! I love it. I hope that this is something that we can carry on everynight with you and your brother!

Last night though you had some accidents. Apparently while I was at work you were playing in your room alone (which Daddy should never let you do this) when one of the big drums fell on you. It cut your eye! I was so sad when I saw it when I came home. WEll than we were playing and I was laying on the recliner because my feet are sooo swollen and sore and you tried to climb up to sit with me. You weren't even half way up when you just fell off back words and hit the back of your head on the tile. I NEVER over react but I spazed out when this happened! I was terrified for you I thought you were going to have a brain bleed. I was just so worried and I clung to you as you sobbed on my shoulder! Praise Jesus you are ok and nothing has been seriously wrong!

LIttle boy I love you so very much and I hope that your new little brother will be your best friend and you will both learn to love the Lord and now how much your MOmmy and Daddy love you! Thank you for being mine! I am more blessed than I could have ever imagined!

18 Months and Summer Vacation!

Oh little boy you are absolutly fantastic. I am so in love with you that it takes my breath away! I cannot believe you are already 18 months old. You seem so much older than you are, time please slow down!!!! You do the silliest things constantly. You have started pretending this last few weeks. YOu pretend you are eating something and you will even share your pretend food. It just makes me laugh. The first time I "Caught" you eating something I thought you really were but nope it was pretend and you just smiled at me. You also like to smell your feet! It is hysterical! You smell them and make an eww face! You started all these new things on family vacation.

We went to a river house in Daytona with Grandma Bells side. IT was the Dyal clan! YOu had an absolutly blast! You loved being with all of your great aunts and uncles and your two cousins Nathan and Jared. You also loved your Uncle Ryan and Michelle and of course your grandparetns! You are so funny and such a ham and people love it. You put on a dance and singing show with Nathan, you swam/floated with mama, you went out to the dock with Daddy and fished, you pushed Nathan and were pushed on your fire truck, you ran around like a crazy man and were chased or chasing constantly, you took 3 hour naps almost every day we were there, you ate like a crazy man and probably gained a few pounds, you pretended to be asleep when I said it was bed time just to get out of going to bed, and you loved the beach!

When we got back from vacation I was soooo tired so Daddy took you out to the woods to hike so I could get some rest. He said that you were soooo funny. It was very quite out there and you couldn't take it so you started making animal sounds! You would also point to the trees and yell tree. You are just so silly and pretty darn amazing if you ask me!

LIttle boy you are amazing! The 4th of July was pretty uneventful. We went to church and than we ate dinner with Grandma and Grandpa Bell. Daddy missed us though because he helped his parents move into their new home! ON the 4th you said the word cheese and even said "more cheese". You are starting to talk even more and we couldn't be prouder.

You are going to be the best big brother and I can't wait to see what this next year holds! I love you little boy!