Smiling and Almost 21 months!

Oh my little boys how I completly adore you both! Pierce you are alsmost 21 months and you grow up more and more everyday. You still go to school and you love it. Everyday you are learning more and more words. Just the other day you learned to say "Love You" it sounds like "Love Lou" but I adore it. You tell me it all the time and I melt. YOu can now sayd Daddy instead of "dada" we are working on the "MOmmy" You call your grandmas "mimi" now if we consistantly remind you to if not you call them "mama" :). You are quite the athlete and everyone things you will be some type of athletic star when you grow up. But you are certainly well rounded as well. You love to sing, dance, draw and color, and you love your share of makeup and painted toe nails. So really you are a beautiful well rounded little boy. I love you so so much and I never want to forget these times with you.

You seem to be adjusting to your new brother well but you do act out when I am feeding him. I know its hard but you are going to be a great brother to him and one day you will thank me for giving you a brother so close in age to you. You guys will be best buds. You love to hold your brother but I often have to take him after a few min b/c you get a little rough. But you do pretty darn well! Just to share a little something that you did the other day. I was on the phone feeding your brother and you walk up with a micraphone I thought you were going to sing. Instead you pegged it at my head and hit me RIGHT on top of my head! I had to laugh but next time I will have to put you in time out. The same night we were snuggling on my bed like we always do b/f you were to go to bed. Again I was feeding your brother. You went from trying to kick him in the head to attacking me. You got me in a choke hold and tried to rip my earring off. I think you wanted attention you were laughing hysterically the whole time. I finally fling you off of me and I run to the computer chair with Hayden for protection and you run charging at me to attack again of course laughing. I see your toy truck and show you it you grab it and your off. SAVED BY THE TRUCK! You are a silly little boy. WEll you do melt my heart. You are so beautiful little boy!

Well my boy Hayden! You are pretty amazing yourself. At about 6.5 weeks you started smiling when you looked at me and on demand. I love it. You smile most for me of course thats because I hold you most. You coo and you grin and you are sooo handsome. YOu look so much like your Daddy. Me and your mimi were talking today and we think you will be tall and handsome like your daddy. Your brother will likely be shorter than you but he will be pretty like his mama! :-). You are a solid little boy and a FABULOUS nurser! I feel so blessed to be able to actually nurse you and Im sad I missed out on this bonding with your brother. You still take a bottle when needed but about 95% of the time you nurse. You do get one bottle of 2 ounces of formula a night to hold you over and you do great! You sleep on average 8-10 hours straight and after you get up to feed you go back to bed till 8:00am! You are amazing and I God certainly knows what I need!

Well boys I love you both so much and am so thankful to be your Mommy! I can't wait to see how much more you both will change! I love you boys! Don't grow up to fast!

Hayden you are 1 month old

Hayden you turned 1 month old yesterday. You aren't doing to much yet but you are a lot more alert. I feel like we have finally gotten to know eachother after a very long and tring month and I have fallen so head over heals in love with you. Son you are wonderful and different and beautiful and I just can't believe that you came from me and your Daddy. You are just so different than you brother in your looks and I adore that. I adore you long beautiful brown/black hair. I can't believe that you have that much. You are just so wonderful son and i can wait to have many more months with you. I love you little boy and the months to come are going to be so awesome! Thank you JEsus for my boys!

Pierce and Hayden

Pierce and Hayden I never knew how full and beautiful my life could be till I had you both. I feel like my life is complete now that I have my Hayden and my Pierce and I could not be happier. I want to cherish every single crazy moment with both of you. I never thought I would want to be a stay at home mom but after this month of being home with both of you I can't imagine ever leaving for work again.

I had to go in for a few hours the other day and Pierce you just cried and cried. It broke my heart. I just longed to be home with you the whole time I was gone not only emotionally but Hayden my body knew that you needed me for food. I could not wait to get home to you to feed you to hold you to snuggle you. And Pierce when you woke up from your nap after I had been home the smile on your face to see I had returned melted my heart. I love you boys more than anything well besides your Daddy and Jesus of course.

I just adore both of your spirits and every moment when it can't get any louder when I want to go crazy I try to remember this won't be like this forever.... cherish every m oment. Before I know it you will both be grown you won't wnat your mama anymore. You won't want to hug eachother or me and Daddy for that matter. I love you both I adore you I never want to forget a moment with you.

Pierce now that you are in school two days a week you love it. You are always so happy when I come to pick you up. You have had such a wonderful time and I know its just a time where you get to fill up on Jesus and sing songs about him and read books about Him. ITs sooo good for you Pierce. I know that Jesus is going to be singing in your soul. I know everytime you hear music about God and Jesus your soul is rejoicing and I rejoice in knowing this. You love to sing and I pray that Jesus will grab your heart before anyone or anything else ever gets a chance and you will know the true meaning of Christ and you will lead others to him. Hayden I pray the same for you I pray that your spirit will long to be with JEsus and that you will cling to him. That you and your brother will leave a legacy and it will be a beautiful one. I love you both so much.

THank you boys for teaching me so much in my life for loving me and for depending on me for all of your needs I adore you both. Pierce and Hayden thank you for being my sons and I pray all the days of your lives that you will know how much your Daddy and I love you and that you will truly understand what you mean to us!

20 Months Old Today and First Day of PreSchool!`

Pierce Man you are officially 20 months old today and you go to school now! I love you so much and this last month has been full of changes and adjustments and you have rocked! You have become a Daddy's boy like no other! You adore your Daddy especially because mama has to feed brother Hayden a lot and there is just a lot going on. Every morning you wake up yelling Dada when it used to be Mama. After nap you yell Dada but you know its ok I love that you and your Daddy have such a close relationship!

We both adore you to pieces. You sit like a big boy. You walked into school today holding my hand the whole time. You didn't try to run from me like you used to. YOu are just a better listener all around. When I ask you to throw something away you do. When you go outside and leave the door open I ask you to shut it and you will. YOu still don't eat very well at meal times but we are working on it. YOu don't have tantrums to often but when you do they sure are hard on everyone!

I think you have come to love your little brother or atleast realize he is not going anywhere atleast for the next 18 years! :-). When he cries you will throw your favortie monkey or your phone at him. I think you are trying to console him with those things because they console you. You always run into his room in the morning wanting to get him up. You hold his hand when we ask you to. You kiss his head when we ask you to or you ask to kiss it. You also like to give him his paci when he cries. You want him to feel better. You are a wonderful big brother and I could not have asked for more!!

YOu say lots of new words all the time. Everyday you learn something new and your words and so sweet and precious. I'll try to list your normal vocabulary.

mama
dada
max
lady
dog
cat
fish
yes
no
stop
more
ice
please
food
wawa
bottle

and many more I just cant think of.

You are truly a joy to have in my life and I love you son. Thank you for being with me for 20 beautiful glorious months. I pray for a million more months to have with you! I love you little boy!

Labor and Delivery! Hayden Jackson!

Hayden Jackson... you have made you arrival!!! Heres how it all went down.

I had been praying you would come every day since I was about 36 weeks pregnant. God knew best and at 39 weeks and 1 day I went into labor and 4:30am in the morning. I had a feeling I was going to have you the night before so I was just waiting. I even went to Mimi Bells for what I said would be my last meal before you came and sure enough it was. I had steak, onions and field peas it was delicious!! Daddy had to work the night and day before so he wasn't home when I went into labor. The pains were too bad but they were pretty consistenet. Around 5:00am I called Grandma Fuller and asked her to come and get me so we could take your brother Pierce to my parents and so that she could take me to the hospital. I knew your Mimi Bell would not be up and ready this early.

Grandma Fuller arrives at 6:00 am. Your brother Pierce had woken up around 5:30am for some strange reason. Maybe he knew what was going to happen. So I got up with him and I rocked and sang to him while he drank his bottle. I was so thankful to have this time with him because I knew I would be seeing him for about a day and a half. He let me rock him and I told him that if he didn't get to see me that night that I would be home the next day to be with him and that I loved him very much. I don't think he understood but I still wanted to tell him.

So we drop Pierce at Mimi Bells and we are off to the hospital to have you. We arrive around 7:00am Daddy is still at work and doesn't get off till 7:30am so he was not rushing. I don't think he realy thought I was in labor.. But I assured him I was. So they hook me up to the monitors at about 7:15am call my Dr. My Dr. comes in around 7:30 and he checks me I'm about 3 cm and pretty regular contractions so he says they will admit me I'm definatly in labor. Are labor nurse was nurse Debbie. She rocked by the way> I really liked her. ANd Dr. Parker is the one who delievered you and he also delivered your brother I think thats kind of special also.

So we go to the labor and delivery room from the triage room. Still having pretty regular contractions. By 7:45am Daddy has arrived. He is still skeptical I think he was in denial. So we get in and the contractions begin to get more intense!!! I never remembered them being this hard and painful with your brother. Maybe I wasn't in active labor till after I had the epidural who knows. Nurse Debbie comes in to start my IV and draw blood and stabbed me about 3 times before she could. I almost blacked out I was hyperventilating begging for an epidural. I was in SOOOOOO much pain.

Around 10:00am they finally get me an epidural. It wasn't that bad this time maybe because Nurse Debbie was with me and holding my shoulders and really helping me and Daddy was just doing his own thing not bothering me which seemed to help. So they get it going and I have almost instant relief. They also gave me some antinausea medicine cause I was so sick from the epidural last time with your brother. After the epidural the Dr. came in around 11:00 am and broke my water everything looked good.

Around 12:00 pm I started feeling pressure and the nurse checked and I was about 7 cm and said that it was likely I would have you very very soon. Soo sure enough 30 min later I was fully dialated and I pushed 3 times not even for 5 min and around 12:35 out you came. NO tearing nothing it was the easiest delivery ever. You had a FULLLLLL head of hair. Nothing like I have ever seen and you look exactly like your Daddy. You are the complete opposite of your brother and you are beautiful! WE are so blessed to have you in our lives. YOu are a sweet boy just a little bit of colic but you are doing wonderful. You breastfeed like a champ and also take a bottle when need be! You were 7.4lbs and 20 inches long.

You and your brother I believe will be best friends and I am so blessed to watch you grow up! We checked out of the hospital at around 2:00 pm and we came home and were with your brother for the first time. Your Uncle Ryan and Michelle also suprised us and came into town from North Dakota. They also were able to meet y our brother the day after he was born. You boys sure are special! Your Uncle Ryan and Aunt Michelle are also pregnant and they are having a boy so you will have a little boy cousin come January 23 (daddy's birthday) or before.

Well we love you Hayden Jackson! By the way Jackson is your great grandfather Dyal's middle name and thats why we picked it!

Love you and are so blessed to have you and your brother Pierce!

19 Months Old and Almost a Big Brother

Oh my little sweetie you are 19 months old today! I adore you so very much and my love for you grows with every passing day. You have brought me so much joy this month and I can't believe how big you are getting.

We have started routines at night of singing and rocking you and I adore this time. I usually end up tickling and singing and praying and we giggle and laugh! ITs wonderful! You are just amazing! You also love your cereal in the morning. You now have a big boy booster seat you sit in at the table and I get you a big bowl of honey nut cheerios and you use your big spoon and feed it to your self till its all gone! It is sooo funny! I love watching you grow into this amazing little boy!

You love to give kisses to EVERYONE! It is so cute! Even a stranger you will kiss! You are very good at self entertaining and entertaining us for that matter as well! I can't believe 19 short months ago you came into our lives and changed us forever! I never knew what it mean't to be a mom and to love someone so selflessly! It is beautiful!

Thank you for being so amazing and I hope and pray that you will continue to grow and love your family and your Lord. When we are in the car listening to z88.3 you sing to all the christian music and I just pray that these words of Truth of Love and of God will become engrained on your soul and you will always look to the Lord for guidance and for Truth!

I love you little boy and I am the proudest mama on the block! Thank you for loving us!

My sweet baby love!

Little boy Pierce I adore you! You are so funny now a days! We have started a new bed time routine because you are getting older and apparently need it. We now start getting ready for bed around 6:45 pm instead of 6:00 pm! :-) Here is how the routine goes!

6:45 pm -
Bathtime
Milk
Bible stories
books
Mommy and Daddy then sing praise songs and kids songs
We say our prayers
Than you go to bed around 7:30pm.

We had to start doing this because after vacation anytime I would put you to bed around 6:30 you would scream and cry hysterically and I wound up taking you out of bed sitting on the couch and watching Yogababa. So it wasn't worth trying to put you to bed earlier.

You still seem to get up between 6-6:30 but I try to keep you in bed till atleast 7:00 so that I can get a little more sleep. You lay in bed and sing and than once you have had enough you scream till I come and get you! You are a crazy little man!

Recently since we have started our praise songs you seem to know all the words to Jesus Loves Me and you constantly ask to hear it more and more. It blesses my heart and I see how the Bible says that Jesus cause the little children who follow with child like faith! I pray that you continue to follow and that the songs and bible stories that we read every night will be engrained on your heart forever and that you will grow up loving and praising Jesus all the days of your life. If thats one thing in life that I want if I get nothing else in life this is what I want for you and your brother Hayden! This is more important to me than anything else in this life! Your relationship with Jesus Christ so that one day when Jesus comes or we pass on we will enjoy eternity in heaven together! I just love you little boy more than I coudl have ever imagined.

Another sweet thing that you do is when we pray everynight you take both your little hands make fist and put them up under your nose while we pray and you are very quite! Than when we are done praying you say AMEN and clap your hands! I love it. I hope that this is something that we can carry on everynight with you and your brother!

Last night though you had some accidents. Apparently while I was at work you were playing in your room alone (which Daddy should never let you do this) when one of the big drums fell on you. It cut your eye! I was so sad when I saw it when I came home. WEll than we were playing and I was laying on the recliner because my feet are sooo swollen and sore and you tried to climb up to sit with me. You weren't even half way up when you just fell off back words and hit the back of your head on the tile. I NEVER over react but I spazed out when this happened! I was terrified for you I thought you were going to have a brain bleed. I was just so worried and I clung to you as you sobbed on my shoulder! Praise Jesus you are ok and nothing has been seriously wrong!

LIttle boy I love you so very much and I hope that your new little brother will be your best friend and you will both learn to love the Lord and now how much your MOmmy and Daddy love you! Thank you for being mine! I am more blessed than I could have ever imagined!